If you look carefully at the commentary paragraphs with these five review lessons, you’ll notice that all five of them move toward a concluding statement of decision:
- “I must let it go.”
- “I do not want to see according to them.”
- “Is not this a better choice?”
- “I choose to have them be replaced.”
- “I am willing to let them go.”
So in each case, what you are doing is talking yourself into the idea in a way that moves you toward a decision.
PARAGRAPH 1. (1) Nothing I see means anything.
Sample thoughts: Do I want to see nothing? Do I want to be blind? To be seeing imaginary images in the dark while thinking I see? Don’t I want vision instead? Don’t I want to really see?
PARAGRAPH 2. (2) I have given what I see all the meaning it has for me.
Sample thoughts: I don’t actually see anything. I just see the judgments I have projected onto things. That’s how I assign meaning to things. I assume these judgments are anchored in reality. But they are totally disconnected from reality. I’m willing to admit this because it’s either them or vision. I can keep my judgments or I can really see. I can keep my judgments or I can really see.
PARAGRAPH 3. (3) I do not understand anything I see.
Sample thoughts: It’s true that I don’t understand the world-it seems to make no sense. Yet that is because the meat of what I see is really just my judgments projected outward. And my judgments are totally off base. They make no sense and so they are not understandable. Why even try? Rather than trying to make sense of them, all I have to do now. Is want to see with vision rather than see my erroneous judgments. …want the real thing rather than my imaginings. Isn’t that the more logical choice?
PARAGRAPH 4. (4) These thoughts do not mean anything.
Sample thoughts: My thoughts don’t mean anything because they aren’t my real thoughts. Do I want to keep them, or do I want my real thoughts instead? My current thoughts are shallow, boring, worried, attacking. And they are thought by me alone. Wouldn’t I prefer the thoughts I think with God? They must contain all meaning. Don’t I want them in place of my current meaningless thoughts?
PARAGRAPH 5. (5) I am never upset for the reason I think.
This one’s a bit harder to understand, so let me explain it: I think I’m being upset by an actual external cause, but that’s not the real reason. What’s really going on is this: I want my thoughts to be justified, specifically my attack thoughts. So I project onto things outside of me the idea that they are actual threats, that they are real enemies, that they are genuine causes of our anger and retaliation. That way I keep my current thoughts-attack thoughts-intact, for those thoughts now seem fully justified by all these outer threats. Thus, seeing external enemies actually justifies my attack-based thought system.
Thus, I think I’m upset because there are real threats out there. But the real reason is that I have made those things seem like threats, so that I can justify (and hang onto) my attack thoughts.